Love Lessons

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Last Saturday morning Ryan and I were in the car, out for the morning running typical errands. We were in a rush to get a few boring but necessary tasks done before driving down to visit his family later that afternoon. We were sitting in silence listening to music.

As I looked over at Ryan I happily smiled to myself and thought how happy it made me to have him to share in the daily mundane, how even just a typical trip to the grocery store was now fun because we were doing it together. As my smile slowly turned into a little laugh.

Ryan turned over and asked, “What I was thinking about?”

What was my response? “Oh, just thinking about everything we have to do today.” I then critiqued the route he chose to take.

What?!

Why did I lie? Why did I hide what I was really thinking? Me, the girl who loves to talk about feelings, didn’t want to express her own? Looking back, I was being so cold.

I don’t understand why I didn’t express my love and gratitude to Ryan in the car that day. Or why on other nights when I miss him terribly I don’t express it to him. Is it because I just didn’t feel like it? That I didn’t want the back and forth banter of “oh I love you SO much” that can sometimes feel overused and artificial? Because I was lazy? Because I wanted him to say something like that to me first?

I know that every single one of those reasons is totally immature and selfish. I’m not perfect.

If there is one universal truth about marriage it is this: Marriage takes a lot of hard work.

In the busyness of everyday it is sometimes hard to remember that such little expressions of love can go a long way. Sometimes it’s just hard to take that extra step. In hindsight it seems unnaturally cold to not do so. Why would I not want to lift my husband up higher, to make him happier?

I’ve never been so sure of anything as I am for my love for Ryan. Yes, we are very different and have different needs. Hearing me vocally express my gratitude and love for him sporadically like that in the car make him smile his big charming smile and make his day. But in my head, I didn’t express it because I think, “oh he knows I love him, he doesn’t need to hear it AGAIN”. But no, he does need to hear it.

Thinking this over made me think of the 5 Languages of Love book by Garry Chapman. It outlines five ways to express and experience love  called “love languages”: gifts, quality time, words of affirmation, acts ofservice, and physical touch. Understanding yours and your partners can help your relationships communication and growth. You can take a 3 minutes test to find out you language. 

Unlike Ryan, I don’t thrive off of hearing the words, “I love you” over and over. Of course I love him and of course I like affirming words of love at times. But, I don’t need to hear it daily. Instead, I thrive off of little acts of service. For instance, my heart melted on Sunday night. I was upstairs working away in the office all afternoon. Around 7 p.m. Ryan came upstairs and surprised me with a cosmo in my favorite martini glass. He took me downstairs and said “why don’t you pick out one of your favorite romantic movies for us to watch together, it’s time for you to relax.” I fell in love a little bit more with my husband at that moment.

I love when he notices that I need a little help around the house, or when I come home and the kitchen is spotless, or he realizes we are out of paper towels and picked some up on the way home. It makes me feel loved because it makes me feel noticed and appreciated. It makes me feel like he is present. I need to tell him that.

Life gets busy. Ryan and I both do things that irritates the other. We both can be highly critical and end up wanting to pull our hair out. But wouldn’t those moments be easier to extinguish with a simple act of love? Wouldn’t they have less chance of turning into a fight or a grudge? Communication isn’t hard, just take the time to do it. Wouldn’t we both be happier?  Why not choose that?

I need to remember to vocalize those happy little inner thoughts that I’m having about Ryan. I need to show my gratitude vocally when he does little acts of kindness from me. I need to give him the love he knows how to best receive. How else can we expect our marriage and our love to grow?

We all need love. There is no doubt that it is complex. Everyone will have a different definition of what love is to them. So, my thoughts, even if I think they are little, or not that important, or silly, may make Ryan feels full of love.

Open up and share, love is all around, you just have to learn to give and receive it in the best way – a lifetime learning process.

If you haven’t already – go take the test and find out your love language!

xoxo Katie

 

 

 

 

 

  • Amen sister:)

    • kwalshmac

      preach it sister! We all need this reminder from time to time! 🙂

  • This is beautiful!

    • kwalshmac

      Thank you, friend!

  • Love/marriage definitely isn’t easy, but you’re right. Those little gestures can take people a long way. What a beautiful and reassuring post.

    • kwalshmac

      Thank you! I think it’s so easy to think that little words or gestures won’t do anything and that the person is always thinking the same thing as you. But, it can be SO easy to brighten someones day. I know I don’t express those things enough. No, it won’t fix major problems but it will make us both a little more happier and relieve some stress hopefully!

  • Love this–it’s so important to remember the little gestures.

    • kwalshmac

      Thank you Elizabeth! Little gestures can make a big difference and they add up quickly!

  • Love your story here. My husband and I are the same love languages as you and your husband- I’m service, he’s words. I agree completely that knowing your languages helps in the long run!

    • kwalshmac

      Awe thank you, that’s neat that we’re the same. It was very eye opening to read about love languages, everything sort of clicked after that.

  • I always have to remind my husband that our love languages are different. He is totally acts of service whereas I am a gift giver and physical touch. It is hard to appreciate the love he expresses since it isn’t my language sometimes, but I am trying to be more aware!

    • kwalshmac

      It is hard and I think it’s an ongoing lesson/struggle. I wonder if things would be easier if we were in relationships with people that had the same love lanuage as us? Or, would that be boring? Would we learn less about ourselves that way? Even though I may forget to say the words my husband needs to hear, there is never a time that I don’t feel BETTER after saying them.

  • We’re getting married in a little less than 6 months. I am taking that test NOW! Thank you for posting!

    • kwalshmac

      Congrats on your upcoming wedding! This quiz was such a big eye opener for both my husband and I. Best wishes!