The Inspiration Expedition

inspiration expedition

Over this past month I was feeling uninspired. The monotony of day-to-day life was wearing me down and I was flat-out tired. Every time I went to write a post I felt empty, I had zero energy to write about my feelings and felt like I had nothing to give or to share. Writer’s block was hitting me hard and I felt like I was abandoning my commitment to this blog.

I needed some inspiration.

In a guilt induced panic I began a desperate search for this elusive inspiration that was going to fill me with all of the ideas, passions, and feelings. I consciously told my inner thoughts to “Be quite! I have some inspiration to go find!”

I took a big breath and set off on an inspiration expedition.

These expeditions aren’t new endeavors for me. I’m a little bit of an inspiration junkie, consuming all articles, books, quotes, podcasts, videos, songs, anything that will fill me with a little hit of inspiration.

I spent countless hours reading the many blogs that I follow looking for ideas or a words that would ignite something in me. I only find myself comparing and thinking , “well I’ll never write something that beautiful” or “I’m not funny like her”. Next I find myself scrolling through Pinterest seeing images of DIY projects I’m not talented enough to create or rooms decorated so beautifully they can’t possibly have people living in them. So then I start stalking celebrity train wrecks on Twitter in an attempt to make myself feel better which leads me to take quizes telling me what country or which Hunger Games district I should live in and soon enough I find myself getting envious over the elaborate and perfect seeming life of a former college classmate on Facebook.

I throw my phone down in disgust and realize that not only did I just waste 2 hours of my life but I was left feeling I’m even more lost  and disconnected feeling than before.

So, I gave up.

I consciously decided to take a break. I was going to stop consuming inspiration. I cut off my expedition and retreated into solitude me time.

I stopped writing a blog 5 times a week, choosing to only write 3 times a week. I took more walks. I read more. Whenever I had a free second I chose to not reach for my phone and concisouly put it out of reach. When I watched TV or a movie I did not allow any distractions and paid attention to the story. I put my phone away. I stopped checking Facebook and twitter hundreds of times a day. I took naps. I journaled more and  I scheduled quiet time before bed each evening, allowing room for reflection.

I’m sure I don’t have to tell you what the outcome was.

I discovered inspiration everywhere. My soul felt nourished. I felt like an individual with value again.

By choosing to turn up the volume of all of the external noise, the blogs, the social media, the comparison to others, I was consciously telling my own thoughts that they weren’t good enough. All the outside inspiration was so loud that it was deafening all of my own  internal thoughts and feelings. I can’t even bear to think of all those wasted hours spent searching (or procrastinating) on my phone.

I’ve made the conscious choice to make time for internal inspiration. To set aside a little time once a day or even once a week for you to turn off lower the volume on all that external noise and distraction and create your own thoughts and feelings. It goes back to my 2014 goal to respect my own desires and myself more.. Your biggest resource for inspiration is yourself.

We all have it inside of us, it just needs us to pay attention to it.

xoxo Katie

 

  • I’m loving this post, girl. It’s so true. Sometimes, all we need is a little real life, away from the computer and phone, to recharge and feel better. I think everyone should take at least 5 minutes every single day to do one thing that makes you happy, or do absolutely nothing. If I didn’t have time during the day to do something for me, I’ll lay awake in bed for awhile, just focusing on my breathing, thinking about life and my goals, etc. It does a world of wonder!

    • kwalshmac

      Thank you! I think it’s something everyone can relate to. I used to feel SO guilty wouldn’t I wouldn’t instantly respond to every text, facebook message, or email. Now I realize unless it’s an emergency, it can wait. There’s too much real life out there that we are missing while being buried in our phone, computers, and homes.

  • I love this post too! I think I was feeling really just “blah” after my grandmother died, and nothing felt good! Yoga didn’t feel good, running didn’t feel good, writing didn’t feel good. I took a break and read a few books, and it took a while, but I feel like I’m finally starting to get my mojo back!

    • kwalshmac

      Thank you! I’m sorry to hear about your grandmother – sometimes we all need a little break to recenter, refocus, and find our direction again. We’re not machines 🙂 I’m glad you’re feeling better.

  • Yes! I love this. Taking time to live life instead of searching out inspiration is what works best for me as well!

    • kwalshmac

      Exactly!! We get so obsessed with everyone and everything else. What about us? Our thoughts? Our needs? Who else is going to listen to them except for ourselves?

  • I love this post. It’s hard to blog when you compare yourself to what others are doing and feel that you are failing in some way. I’m glad that you rediscovered your inspiration.

    • kwalshmac

      The comparison game is the worst. It’s so hard to lose touch of yourself. There’s always going to be someone funnier, prettier, wiser, more popular, but there’s only one you, right?! 🙂

  • Katie! This post is SOO good. I am so inspired by you, and have felt the need to just set down the technology and connect with myself lately too.

    • kwalshmac

      Thanks Brittnay! I think we could all use a scheduled break now and then. Especially after this brutal winter. I want to do nothing more than to be out in nature and enjoying the sun and ignoring my computer 🙂

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