Marriage is Like a Seesaw

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This coming Monday, Ryan and I will be celebrating our first wedding anniversary. To celebarte we’re taking a long weekend up in the beautiful Finger Lakes. This will be our second trip to the region this year and I can’t wait to relax by the water, drink wine, and reflect on this past year. And boy what a year. Somedays it feels like our wedding was just a month ago. Other days it feels like I’ve aged years since I was the anxious June bride.

One year ago I took one of the biggest risks of my life. I committed myself to my best friend and to love him unconditionally for the rest of my life.

No doubt love is a beautiful thing. Falling in love is the easy part. The part that is magical and makes your life feel like a fairy tale. Staying in love is a choice. Don’t hate me, but I don’t believe in soul mates or love at first sight. I think love is a decision, a constant piece of work and intent action. And sometimes it is hard.

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Of course I am no expert on marriage or love and these are simply my reflections on my relationship.

I love Ryan in a way I never knew I could love someone, and I’m amazed at how much our love can change in just one year. We have fun, we laugh, we smile, and we are certainly silly together. Yet, their are days when I can’t stand him. (as there are days when he can’t stand me either!) Some days he is just the man who leaves the dirty peanut butter knife in the sink and who scrubs the bathrooms spotlessly (never enough thank yous for that one!) There are days when I simply want to be alone. Those days when the idea of talking to anyone else or sharing the couch and bed with someone make me want to runaway. 

Then other days, and these days are far more plentiful, I wake up smiling, happy that I get to live another day as his wife. Beyond grateful that our joys are doubles because they are shared. He is my teammate, my conspirator, my built in best friend. We make each others heartaches endurable, we make fun times more fun, and we make the love we see in the movies seem trivial to what we have.

One of my favorite phrases to think is, “I’ll be right here”. No matter what, ever day, I’ll be right here. Always the number one priority. That is a promise I make. That is a choice I continue to make. 

Over the past year I’ve come to see love and marriage like a seesaw.

Ryan and I chose each other as partners on the seesaw on the playground, we were best friends and could think of anything more fun than sitting facing eachother on the playground, having a blast every day. We each took our designated seats, smiled at each other and thought, “This is going to be fun!” We were both excited for the joy and the thrill the seesaw would bring us as well as the fact that we got to have this fun together. 

Who doesn’t love the seesaw?  You have that butterfly feeling in your stomach as you’re flying up and down and sometimes you get that thrilling bounce, where you’re popped of the seat at the top, when you partner decides to make that day extra fun for you. It’s full of unexpecting surprises. The speed, height, and fun you will have lies in the hands of your partner. You have to trust him to do what is best for you, or simply be content with what he brings to the table. 

Like marriage, both partners have to put in equal work. The seesaw will go nowhere if neither or only one partner is doing all of the pushing. Even on days when you’re tired and just want to play alone, you still must put in the work to make the seesaw work efficiently. And even on those days, I bet you’ll be happy you chose the seesaw over a solo day on the swings. Once you see the smile of your partner as he soars to the top of the seesaw a day spent alone is unimaginable.

It isn’t always thrilling. It’s fa fact that while on a seesaw one partner will always be up while the other is down. Such is life. You can’t be equals 100% of the time. But just when one partner helps the other get up to the top, where the views are splendid and the work is easy that same partner will come down and help the other rise to the same bliss. You work together to acheive a mutual happiness. Giving love is always better than receiving love.   

Currently our seesaw is in pretty good shape, being only a year old and all. As it ages I understand that the highs and lows will only increase. But I truly believe the highs will always outshine the lows. There is nothing that fills my stomach with butterflies than the expectation and hopes of what the future holds for Ryan and me. Yes, marriage and love can be scary but jumping on the seesaw with Ryan is a choice I won’t regret. As my heart grows so does my choice to love him more and more. 

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xoxo Katie

 

 

“Blind” First Look and Wedding Gifts (wedding recap #4)

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I only have a few days left before celebrating our one year anniversary and these wedding recaps may have to spread out after June 2 as I have more to share and document for memory’s sake. So if you’re not one for wedding and sentimental talk this week may not be your week at my blog, or ever really since I’m the most sentimental person I know.

I’ve shared my wedding theme and details, my dress and number one wedding dress advice, and my last wedding post recapped my rehearsal day, mini disaster and all. Today I wanted to talk about the moments leading up to when we said “I Do”. 

Sunday June 2, 2013. I woke up bright and early on my wedding day, a ball of nerves. I was worried about the weather above all else. There was a 85% chance that it was going to rain. My entire wedding was outside….

Me, the bridesmaids, and our moms all went to the salon at 9:00 a.m. to start the beautification process. In between checking the weather on my phone every 5 minutes, I got my hair done and my air brush make up applied and sipped Mimosas. As our wedding was on a Sunday we had the entire salon, which was a Victorian mansion, to ourselves. It was a lot of fun.

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As we drove to the venue it started to sprinkle, just a tiny bit. I crossed my fingers that this was all the rain that would be happening that day. 

At the venue we girls quickly ate our lunch and then started to get dressed. All 5 bridesmaids and my mom and Ryan’s mom got dressed in about twenty minutes.

gettting ready 

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Then it was my turn. It took about 30 minutes to get three people to strap me into my gown. After doing some final touches we ventured outside to take some fun bridesmaid photos.

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Luckily no rain yet! I tried to focus on everything that was going on, but everything was so overwhelming, I just kept smiling full force, through my nerves. 

After getting some gorgeous bridesmaid photos we were ushered inside and sequestered into the “bride’s house” on the property. (There was a bride’s house and a groom’s house on the property, very cool.) Ryan and the groomsmen were arriving soon and we had to be out of sight to avoid the faux pas of Ryan seeing me before the ceremony. (I wanted to follow all the traditional rules). 

We poured some Mimosas and I tried to relax while we waited. Weddings are a lot like holidays, a lot of rushing around to just sit and wait. And be anxious. 

mimosas right before the wedding

After I practiced my vows, had some girl talk, and checked the weather five hundred more times, Ryan’s Dad came and escorted me outside for a special pre ceremony meeting with Ryan, where we wouldn’t actually see each other.

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Since we decided to follow tradition and not see each other before the ceremony, we found a way to have a romantic rendezvous where we could hold hands, exchange love notes, and give each other that little extra piece of private encouragement before saying “I Do” in front of everyone. We were both highly nervous, not about our commitment, but about being the center of attention. 

The “blind” first look was perfect for us.

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Ryan’s normally gruff and non sentimental father tenderly walked me up a hill toward one of the barns on the farm. Ryan was hidden away inside of the barn while the photographer set me up on one side of the large barn door. Once I was situated, Ryan quietly made is way out of the barn and to his side of the door. I blindly reached my hand over and we gave each other an encouraging squeeze.

I felt his energy and his love and after all of the stress of the day and worry about the weather, I was instantly reminded that this was what it was all about. We exchanged our notes, shed some tears, and had a perfect moment. 

Our awesome photographer caught the entire experience on film. 

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Ryan and I then went back to our separate houses and finished any last wedding prep. During this time my maid of honor delivered my wedding gift to Ryan and Ryan’s best man delivered Ryan’s gift to me. Wedding gifts are just one of those  traditions that have lately gotten way out of control. When we first started wedding planning we decided that our vows and commitment were gift enough (also the honeymoon!). But we still wanted to exchange heart-felt gifts that were under $40 each. 

Ryan gifted me an adorable necklace with a heart and key pendant that has an engraving that says “My Heart Is Locked To All But You”.

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I gifted Ryan and pocket watch engraved with “I Will Love You Til The End of Time” as well as a journal that I had kept over the last three-month. In the journal I had written Ryan a letter/entry for every day from March 1 – June 2.

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groom gift pocket watch

They were both perfect.

As I gushed over the thoughtfulness of my husband, my friends alerted me to the fact that the string quartet had started to play and the guests were finding their seats.

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It was time to go. I was going to be getting married in the next hour! The sun was shining and there was no rain. We were going to make it through the ceremony! We weren’t going to have to scramble and move everything inside the tent. Thank goodness!

I had to remind myself to breathe as my mom and maid of honor helped me down the stairs.

My mom and I had a final moment together before she was whisked off to start her walk down the aisle with her father. We shed some light tears over the fact I was wearing the necklace my Nanny (her mother) gave me. It was a delicate gold chain with 5 pearls. She gave me one pearl of each year of my life, she passed when I was 6. We were both wishing she was there.

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After she left my dad arrived and I held on tightly to his hand.  The day we had been waiting for since December, and since I was a little girl was happening. (also the sun was shining and there was not a drop of rain!). Let’s do this! 

…to be continued. 

xoxo Katie
 

Little Loves of Life

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There is nothing like a long weekend spent with family and time outdoors to make you slow down and appreciate the small things.

Life is constantly a busy mess. It can often feel like nothing is going your way and you are always stumbling and trying to catch your breath. It’s clumsy, messy, and tiring. My trick is to remember that we are all in this crazy game together and that the good often out weighs the bad. 

 Isn’t is crazy how the tiny things, when all added up, are the things that make our lives worth living? Our tiny loves are the things that transform our life from a stumbling mess into a beautiful dance. They set the beat and encourage us to to the extra twirls and dramatic dips. 

Here are a few of my little loves from the weekend that make my life worth living, the little things that make my heart do a little dance. 

The smell of coconut pineapple Chapstick (the only kind I buy) 

Straws

Violets growing in the yard

The feel of opening a brand new never been read before book

The smell of sun screen

The proud look Maggie gives when she retrieves her play rope outside

Ice cream sandwiches made with chocolate chip cookies

Ice clinking in summer cocktails

Fresh clean sheets

Holding hands with Ryan in silence while sitting outside

 

Follow along on instagram for more little loves. 

What little things made you happy this long weekend?

xoxo Katie
 

 

 

Sweet Potato Pizza Pie

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Yes, you read that correctly sweet potato and pizza, together!

This has become my new favorite recipes. You see, I go on these binges where I rotate the same 4-5 recipes over and over until I get sick of them. Sweet Potato Pizza Pie has been in heavy rotation in my house lately, Ryan and I are both big fans.

I first discovered this amazing combination of nutrient rich sweet potatoes and pizza at one of my favorite local restaurants, John J Jeffries, a local spot that is known for using all locally grown products and turning out tasty, sustainable, and organic meals and libations.

I quickly became obsessed with their Sweet Potato Pizza Pie. I kept going back for more and unless I wanted to spend all our monthly restaurant budget on this pie I was determined to learn how to make it at home. 

And that I did, for under $5.00 per pizza (that is twice the size of the restaurant’s version.)

Why do I love this pizza so much? One, I have an aversion to tomato sauce and can’t handle more than a tablespoon at a time. Therefore regular pizza is sadly not something I can fit into my regular diet. As this pie substitutes sweet potato puree for tomato sauce I can fully enjoy it without worry about the after effects.

Secondly, sweet potatoes are packed with nutrients and antioxidants, earning them the nomination of one of the healthiest foods we can eat. They makes this dish filling and nutritional. (unlike regular pizza).

Also it’s cheap and easy

So, for Leslie’s Recipe Confessional Friday, a fun way to swap recipes and discover new recipe standards, I thought I’d share MY version of Sweet Potato Pizza Pie. 

Sweet Potato Pizza Pie
Let’s get to it!

What You Will Need:

  • One average sized Sweet Potato
  • Pizza Crust (you can make your own, but I cheat and use Trader Joe’s Garlic and Herb Pizza dough and roll it out into a pie)
  • around 1/4 cup onions diced
  • 1/2 cup mushrooms
  • Shredded Colby Cheese (I use 1/2 cup but you can use less or more)
  • 1/2 Tbsp of Basil 
  • oregano (to your liking)

Directions:

  1.  Peel the sweet potato and cook it in the microwave or the oven until it is cooked through. You want it to be softer than it would be if you were cooking it to eat with a fork. 
  2.  Puree the sweet potato in a food processor. Set aside.
  3.  Dice the onions and cut up the mushrooms.
  4.  Prepare you pizza crust and lay it out on your baking pan or pizza stone.
  5.   Using a spatula, evenly spread the sweet potato puree over the pizza crust. (remember this is our “sauce”)
  6.   Top with onions, mushrooms, and basil.
  7.  Top with cheese.
  8.  Bake at 350 degrees for however long your pizza crust needs to bake for (depends on what type you use). I bake mine for 8-10 minutes or until the crust is a light golden brown. 
  9.  Remove from oven and let cool for a few minutes. 
  10.  Top with oregano and serve!

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Sure to be a hit!

(please ignore the nutritional information calculated below. This was automatically generated and it not correct. The total fat and calories depend on the type of crust and cheese you decide to use)

Have a great holiday weekend! It’s the official start of summer with temps expecting to rise into the 80’s. I’m breaking out the maxi dresses and flip-flops and chilling.  See ya on Monday!

xoxo Katie
Sweet Potato Pizza Pie
Serves 4
A nutritional pizza using sweet potatoes, onions, mushrooms, herbs, and colby jack cheese on a garlic herb crust. (A tomato free pizza!)
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Prep Time
6 min
Cook Time
10 min
Total Time
16 min
Prep Time
6 min
Cook Time
10 min
Total Time
16 min
111 calories
12 g
14 g
5 g
5 g
3 g
73 g
50 g
3 g
0 g
1 g
Nutrition Facts
Serving Size
73g
Servings
4
Amount Per Serving
Calories 111
Calories from Fat 44
% Daily Value *
Total Fat 5g
8%
Saturated Fat 3g
15%
Trans Fat 0g
Polyunsaturated Fat 0g
Monounsaturated Fat 1g
Cholesterol 14mg
5%
Sodium 50mg
2%
Total Carbohydrates 12g
4%
Dietary Fiber 2g
9%
Sugars 3g
Protein 5g
Vitamin A
95%
Vitamin C
3%
Calcium
14%
Iron
7%
* Percent Daily Values are based on a 2,000 calorie diet. Your Daily Values may be higher or lower depending on your calorie needs.
Ingredients
  1. One average sized Sweet Potato
  2. Pizza Crust (you can make your own, but I cheat and use Trader Joe’s Garlic and Herb Pizza dough and roll it out into a pie)
  3. around 1/4 cup onions diced
  4. 1/2 cup mushrooms
  5. Shredded Colby Cheese (I use 1/2 cup but you can use less or more)
  6. 1/2 Tbsp of Basil
  7. Oregano (to your liking)
Instructions
  1. 1. Peel and cook the sweet potato in the microwave or the oven until it is cooked through. You want it to be softer than it would be if you were cooking it to eat with a fork.
  2. 2. Puree the sweet potato in a food processor. Set aside.
  3. 3. Dice the onions and cut up the mushrooms.
  4. 4. Prepare you pizza crust and lay it out on your baking pan or pizza stone.
  5. 5. Using a spatula, evenly spread the sweet potato puree over the pizza crust. (remember this is our “sauce”)
  6. 6. Top with onions, mushrooms, and basil.
  7. 7. Top with cheese.
  8. 8. Bake at 350 degrees for however long your pizza crust needs to bake for (depends on what type you use). I bake mine for 8-10 minutes or until the crust is a light golden brown.
  9. 9. Remove from oven and let cool for a few minutes.
  10. 10. Top with oregano and serve!
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5 Tips To Stay Stress Free While Wedding Planning

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Wedding season is officially upon us! Exactly one year ago I was in a constant mode of anxiety and excitement, jumping through many hoops and putting out many fires. Yes, last May I was deep in the final stages of wedding planning. As I survived and enjoyed a very lovely and beautiful wedding day, I thought I’d share some tips with brides to be on how to stay calm and less stressed in the weeks leading up to your wedding day.

There’s no doubt that the time surrounding a woman’s wedding day is equally one of the most stressful and exciting times in her life. After a quick 6-month engagement, my husband and I got married last June. It was a beautiful day but I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that I endured my fair share of stress and anxiety throughout those 6 months.

Stress and bride are two words that inevitably go together. No matter how carefully you plan or how organized you are, there never seems to be enough time to get everything done. You feel like you’re riding an endless emotional rollercoaster as you deal with the stress and the pressure from vendors, money, family, the wedding party, and all of the upcoming change.

Here are 5 tips to help brides stay stress free during wedding planning:

1. Learn To Delegate Tasks
Weddings take A LOT of work. Do not feel like you have to take it all on by yourself. This was hard for me. Too often I felt like no one else would do it as good as me or that I’d be bothering people by asking them to help. Wrong and wrong! Once I got over it, I realized a lot of people were willing to help.
Split up tasks and delegate small jobs to bridesmaids, your fiancé, family, and other friends. They’ll be happy to be a part of executing your big day!

2. Schedule Date Nights (where no wedding talk is allowed)
Be sure to schedule in some alone time for you and your fiancé. Go out, have fun, let loose, and force yourself to not talk about the wedding. This will help the two of you to stay connected and learn to lean on each other – remember, the big day is about the two of you and the celebration of your life long commitment and love for each other! It’s supposed to be fun!

3. Get Organized!
This may sound like a given, but being truly organized with to-do lists and spreadsheets will help you remain put together and not question if you are forgetting anything important. Even if you hate lists – now is the time to start making them! There are hundreds of tasks, items to remember, and budgets to make. I found it helpful to break down the wedding day tasks into categories and make separate folders with their own lists and spreadsheets for each category. Think: Caterer, Florists, Decorations, Music, Wedding Party etc. This helps to not feel so overwhelmed by the magnitude of things to do.

4. Take Care Of Yourself
Schedule some “me time” and be sure to use it to relax and take care of yourself. Continue to exercise and eat healthy, book a massage, shop for the honeymoon, and get enough sleep. Do any activity that makes you feel relaxed and human. It’s easy to lose yourself amidst all of the stress.

5. Lastly, remember, only you will know if something little goes awry
I get it; I worried painfully about every last detail. I spent so much time designing and selecting every element of my wedding – from the flowers, to the centerpieces, to the escort cards, to the tuxes and dresses. Panic attacks woke me up in the middle of the night on a regular basis. The idea of one of my table settings to turn out not exactly as I imagined drove me mad.

In all honesty, no one else will ever notice or care if something small goes wrong. People are there to witness your love and to enjoy a good party. At the end of the day no one will remember most of the small details.

I nearly died when I discovered our tux rental place had messed up our order and did not have enough of the blush ties I wanted each of the groomsmen to wear. Tears were shed. In the end, the groomsmen wore cream ties and looked just as lovely.

People are going to remember how much of a good time they had and how beautiful you looked, not what shade of white paper the table settings were printed on.

Your wedding day is a day set aside to celebrate you and your love. Once you get as organized as you can, try not to sweat the small stuff and to enjoy every moment. A tremendous amount of pressure is put on weddings, but it’s only one day out of your entire life. The day is going to go by in the blink of an eye, be present in the moment and enjoy the specialness of the day.

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This post was originally published on Married To The Game

xoxo Katie
 

 

Currently

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Hello friends, life this Spring is flying by. I’ve been busy enjoying the sunshine and being outside and doing less computer work and blogging, as it should be.  

My biggest news is shown above. Yes,I went and got a big girl car! This past Saturday,Ryan and I purchased a Kia Sorento. I feel so adult! Ryan’s old Corolla wasn’t going to make it another year past inspection, it was time to say goodbye to it and get a car we could grow into over the next few years. So far I’m liking the space and the ride.

Here’s a more of peak into my current world:

Reading: I’m currently reading Tell The Wolves I’m Home by Carol Rifka Brunt. I’m only about 50 pages in but already love the writing and characters.


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Before starting this book I read the Divergent Series…and was completely disappointed in the three books. I didn’t really even get invested in the story or characters until the very end of book two. You know how sometimes you want to prolong a book because you’re not ready to say goodbye to the characters yet? I experienced the opposite with Divergent series. I couldn’t wait for it to be over so I could move on to another book. The writing was dry and I just didn’t care too much about the characters.  Am I in the minority here? 

Watching: All my favorite shows finales. Revenge left me gasping, Nashville had me all emotional, Reign had me wanting more teenage ancient history drama, The Mindy Project had me bawling and smiling at the same time, was that not the cutest episode ever?

Wanting: The weather to make up its mind, one day it is beautiful and 70 and the next it’s 60 and pouring all day. But I do have to say that there have been more warmer days lately than not. Other than small things like the weather, my wants are more centered around where we’re going to be in the next year or two. But I’m coming to terms that whatever will be will be.  

Thinking: Why do the winter months have to drag and then once the sun comes out the days fly by? I can’t believe that it is almost June…and our one year anniversary on June 2. I’m reflecting a lot back on our first married year these days. Also about how cute and happy Maggie is to be running free outside.


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Needing: To get away. Really looking forward to our first anniversary trip to the Finger Lakes in two weeks. A whole weekend of nothing to worry about except what wineries to go to and what book to read lakeside. 

Smelling: All the loveliness of outdoors (and the unloveliness too, fresh manure in the fields anyone?)

Loving: Having Ryan home in the evenings since he is not taking any classes this summer. Also ice cream. I can’t get enough ice cream these days. My favorite is at a local creamery with over 20 flavors. 

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Cooking: Really not cooking anything too intricate these days. It’s been busy busy busy leaving less time in the kitchen. Prepping some of my basics like my favorite chicken salad, sweet potatoes, and spaghetti squash and enjoying fresh fruit. 

Listening: To soft folksy music like James Taylor as well as to my heart.The music is easy on my soul and gets me relaxed and happy feeling. “Up On The Roof” as been on repeat lately. I’m trying to slow things down and really be in the moment rather than constantly just thinking about what’s next and being anxious about our unknown future. 

Planning For: All sorts of summer fun including our one year anniversary trip, my best friend’s bachelorette weekend, summer weddings, and our family trip to Jamaica! And for my mom to recover from her surgery so she can be out and about and we can do things together again. 

I’d love to hear what you’ve been up to lately! Let me know below!


xoxo Katie

 

 

 

Fear of the Unknown

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Do you remember that annoying kid in school that was always raising their hand and knew all the answers? That was me.

I never wanted to be caught off guard, surprised, not know the answers, or not know what was going to happen next. I always did my research. I always discovered the answers. I always had a plan.

Otherwise I was a mess. The more that remained unknown the more I worried. I’d become overridden with anxiety and not enjoy life. 

I’m still this way. Even though the word “adventure” is in my blog title, a word that to many evokes spontaneous and hazardous activity, the unknown paralyzes me with anxiety. I like my adventures to be very well thought out.

Before I go on trip I do hardcore research on restaurants, sites, and hotels. When I go to the doctor I need them to calmly tell me each and every step of the procedure they are about to do. Dates are planned with a specific agenda. Lists, spreadsheets, calendars, and maps are all friends of mine. 

I’m not stupid. I know that life laughs in your face when you try to make plans. I’ve faced enough obstacles in my 31 years to know that life cannot be planned and the only thing you can expect is the unexpected.

Yet, I still find myself yearning to plan for the future. I want to do my best to ensure I’m as prepared as I can be. I want to know all the answers to all the things.

The small things: What will we have for dinner? What will I wear tomorrow? Where should we go on a weekend trip?

And the big things: Where will we be living in 5 years? Where will Ryan be working? When will we have a family? When will we have a house? How long will I be at this job? 

In just one year Ryan graduates from law school. It will be a great celebration after four years of hard work. He is currently on summer break. For months I’ve been looking forward to this summer so that we’d have more time together and the stress of school wouldn’t be weighing heavy on him (and me). We’d be a normal couple, waking up and going to work and coming home to have dinner together (even if it is at 8 p.m.) and full weekends free! 

Yet, here we are, getting paralyzed by the unknown.

This whole week my heart has been beating too fast for me to catch my breath. I have no idea where we will be in one year. Most likely we will be moving. I have moved 8 times since I graduated from college. The idea of moving out of our current house makes me want to vomit.

This past week I’ve been creating multiple budgets and looking up homes. I have no idea what state we will even be living in. We could be moving in six months. All dependent on where Ryan can secure a good job. I know that we are in this together and that is part of the fun, the adventure. But it doesn’t change the fact that this part of our future is out of our control.

Will he find a job? Will he find a job he’ll be happy in? Will I have to leave my job? Will I find another job? Will we find housing as nice as our current home? Will I have to say goodbye to my family? Will I have to leave this town, this countryside that I’ve grown to love? No matter how many houses or jobs or neighborhoods I look at, there is no way of knowing what will be.

 There is no way to plan for this. For once in my life, I do not know all the answers and it terrifies me. 

xoxo Katie