Thank you everyone for your support after our little scare last week. Baby Mac is still cooking and I’m doing fine, other than dealing with intense anxiety every day. I feel the same way I did at the beginning of my pregnancy, when I lived in daily fear of losing the baby.
I have fears everyday of losing him, or having to deliver him today, (12 weeks early) But we are still here and moving along!
Due Date: September 15 (I decided to go with the doctor’s due date for me instead of my predicted Septebmer 17. Since I’ll be seeing them weekly, I wanted to be on the exact same page as their charts.)
Baby Size: He’s about 15 inches long, weights about 2 pounds and is the size of a head of cauliflower. His taste buds are developed and he can now taste (and decide if he loves or hates) specific foods that I’m eating. He’s also opening and closely his eyes and has developed some hair on his head (maybe) and eyelashes and eyebrows.
Weight gain: Up 20 pounds. The other fun news I was delivered at my appointment last week was that I’m gaining too much weight. Just what every preggo wants to hear, right?! So, I’m watching what I’m eating and working out 4 times a week instead of 3.
Movement: My last post in summary: Being monitored weekly by high risk doctor for low fetal movement. And it’s freaking scary!
Best moment of these past two weeks: Seeing Taylor Swift in concert with my best friend! This is the third time we’ve seen her together, it’s the best tradition and always so much fun! We always joke that we are her oldest but biggest fans. I made this cute “Youngest Taylor Swift Fan” shirt for the occasion.
Worst moment of the past two weeks: Last week’s doctor appointment and subsequent anxiety that has haunted me since. I also feel like I’ve hit a wall entering my third trimester. I’m so exhausted and feel so heavy and tight in the belly all the time and am having trouble just getting through the day with bad pains in my lower abdomen. Many days I’ve burst into tears while sitting and worrying.
But of course now I worry what all this anxiety is doing to my pregnancy as well. Ryan is doing a good job at keeping me positive and we are taking each day at a time. I’ve been doing my kick counts daily and do feel him move, but I’m worried it’s not enough.
In the meantime I’m trying to learn to trust my instincts and give baby my love. And smile. (although these cheesy photos were taken a few days before the news haha)
I’m looking forward to going back to the doctor on Wednesday to learn more/ask more questions. Good news is that I took the Glucose test on Thursday and I got my blood work back last night and it looks like I passed that! So at least one less thing to worry about!